being raw.

Sometimes you just get to that point. And I think everyone knows which point I’m talking about. It's just that ledge that you want to allow yourself to fall down. It'd be too easy to give up though so I always keep myself a safe distance from committing to that fall. 

I'm really struggling right now. 

I didn't think that it would ever get to this point again, really. I've always been a pretty happy person with down moments. But I'm really struggling to get through right now for some reason. I don't know exactly what it is either. Actually, I think I do. I'm thoroughly exhausted from the tip of my toes to the tippy top of my head and brain and mind. I'm tired from being stressed (which I'm working on controlling that), I'm tired of being let down, I'm tired of expecting things from people, and I'm tired of wishing things would happen that I know can't. I think the only person that keeps letting me down is me. I think I just need to take a break from people for a while and just do my own thing. I want to do more for me. I wish I could run...everything would be better. :P